Courage to Continue

Cup, Whisk & Keyboard

I made the mistake of checking my mail before going to bed last night and one email haunted me through the night. It wasn’t personal, at the same time it rocked my sense of purpose and integrity. Just one thing after another yesterday and this frustratingly broke the camel’s back in terms of me thinking why is everything so hard, like being asked to move a truck by the same person who is sat in the front seat pulling the handbrake on saying go faster. I’m there at the front of the truck ropes around my shoulders straining with the weight like the world’s strongest man putting one foot in front of another. Then someone throws a couple of logs in front of me like a bunch of Ewoks trying to take down a Scout Walker.

It’s all in my mind I know, and I can choose where to go with this. I’m sat upright in bed looking out the window with my coffee, the rainclouds drifting over the top of Arthur’s seat. At the same time as staring out the window I’m checking in with the writing community and I come across the words ‘Sometimes the courage is to continue. To choose to wake up again and face the process of leaning into life and love’. It’s a southing balm for my thoughts as is the quote that dropped into my mailbox from the James Clear bulletin:

Writer Jeanette Winterson on the connection between art and an open mind:
“Most of us spend a lot of time censoring everything that we see and hear. Does it fit with our world picture? And if it doesn’t, how can we shut it out, how can we ignore it, how can we challenge it? We are continually threatened in life, it’s true. But once you are alone with a book, and it’s also true with a picture or with music, all those defenses drop and you can enter into a quite different space where you will learn to think differently about yourself.”
Source: Women at Work Vol II: Interviews from the Paris Review​

It’s rained through the night, a much needed down pour for the garden and a sense of a new day shapes in my mind. I’m inclined to post my thoughts with courage and with my imperfections.

 

 


The #WeekendCoffeeShare is an informal weekly link-up hosted by Natalie the Explorer that serves as weekly heart beat and sort of of a mind-dump. Helps me reflect on my week, with a list of achievements, thoughts and rambles normally whilst drinking a beverage probably listening to music.

18 thoughts on “Courage to Continue

  1. Hey EC !

    It’s great to hear from you again. I’ve been wondering where you wandered off to.
    I hope all is well, but as is often true in the IT world, it sounds like things have been challenging.

    I – hear this – and feel – your pain brother.

    This is true for me too and I too often find myself thinking, when is enough enough? How far off is retirement anyway?
    I could fill a page with a list of thing that annoy me on this job that did not annoy me much when I was a younger man, so I bet that much of the problem for me is of my own making (allowing perhaps ?)

    Regardless, it’s great to hear that you’re still out there, still cooking no doubt and obviously still thinking.
    Let’s do coffee together more often going forward shall we?

    1. All is well thanks Gary, and thank you for popping by despite my absence. It’s not for want of trying….I need to borrow that quantum time piece of yours! Have a good week.

  2. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with #weekendcoffeeshare. I hope your weekend goes well and you have a much better week next week.

    1. Thanks Maria, the weekend passed quickly and here we are again. This time I’m ready for what get’s thrown at me. Hope you have good week.

  3. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I’m reminded of Mother Theresa’s response to a reporter when asked if she was overwhelmed by all of the sickness and poverty surrounding her. She said something like….No. I’m by never overwhelmed because I’m doing what I OUGHT to do and that’s enough!
    Know that whatever you’re doing is enough….and let the rest go. You don’t have to fix everything. You just have to do what you can and that’s enough.
    Wishing you peace 🌺

    1. Thank you so much for these wise words. I’ve read this a few times over the weekend and it’s helped my mind in so many ways. Really appreciate you taking the time. Thank you

    1. Thank you for reading, hopefully a little more in the quote than my rambling. Have a good week.

  4. I hope you have a better week. People’s off-hand words are sometimes painful. I’m glad you have found the courage to move past them.

    1. Thanks, by the end of this week should all be resolved…just need to hit the day running.

  5. Sometimes it really is just that one thing that on a normal day mightn’t impact you as much but on other days really is that straw. Knowing logically that it is something you can rationalise out and actually doing the rationalising are 2 different things. Here’s to a great week ahead. #weekendcoffeechatchup

    1. Thanks Jo, Monday has come round quickly and I’m ready to take the week full on again! Thanks for stopping by.

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